the future can be as clear as mud. But that won’t stop me from believing we are meant to work this out. Just because the clouds are out doesn’t mean the sun isn’t shining. We will get through this and find a way to be together for good.
i read a couple posts on the relationship situations of some people online. it made me thought about my own.
people always say ‘if the guy can’t give you commitment, he just doesn’t really like you at all’. i dont know why i can’t bring myself to agree with that.
it is quite situational, right? afterall, he is working, while i’m still in school, with many years left. not naturally an academic, my marks aren’t really all that amazing. is it due to this? no. in fact, the feeling of needing and wanting a relationship with him earlier on has all but completely dissipated. i love how we are right now. and i know things will only go forward.
it is hard sometimes to realize that we aren’t exclusive with one another, and that we’re ‘together’ under the basis of trust- that neither of us are seeing anyone else, and that we are building up for a possible future together. it’s like, if we get into a relationship, it will be so delicate and fragile because we do not want to ever break this friendship we have. it had gotten to the point where i do cry over him, do cry about this situation, and have felt my heart suffer as if i went through another break up. i think the reason why we are not in a relationship is because of this fragility…and possibility of us breaking up when we do not have the luxury to spend time with one another freely as we choose.
and that is because we want to be each other’s lasts. it may be a bad habit of mine, but my heart already has his name etched into it…and slowly but surely permanently with each day that passes. i work hard to be able to get time to see him. and so does he
i want him to enjoy his life. i want him to make himself happy before thinking about settling down with someone. i want him to be completely content and focused with what he is doing. so that he will have no regrets, if he finally chooses to settle down.
having no time for a relationship is not an excuse. it does depend on your situation. and sometimes, the reason is because for the future. the real future.
even if your arms are a bit too built..makes it hard to breathe but man. i would die to hug you like that everyday.
a little truth behind every “just kidding”
a little knowledge behind every “i don’t know”
a little emotion behind every “i don’t care”
and a little pain behind every “it’s okay.”
We need to know how to distinguish between:
a man who flatters her
and a man who compliments her,
a man who spends money on her
and a man who invests in her,
a man who views her as property
and a man who views her properly
a man who lusts after her
and a man who loves her,
a man who believes he’s a gift to women
and a man who believes she’s a gift to him.
-You save those cute conversations on your phone or computer
-You reread those convos
-You smile to yourself whenever you think about them and think about random memories with them
-You smile whenever you see their name when they text you
-They are the first person you want to tell about your most recent accomplishments
-They are your first thought when you wake up. Literally.
-They are what you think about before you fall asleep
-You hope to see them in your dreams and when the dream is about them you always remember it
-The dream answers your greatest desire with them and when you wake up you have a feeling of hope
-You feel edgy and irritated when you haven’t seen them for awhile
-You feel irritated when people ask you about them and comment about them
-You cry about them to the point it feels like you’ve broken up when you didn’t
-You wonder what they are doing when they’re not with you
-When you’re blogging about them.