you know what’s weird?
I can’t really describe what I’m feeling right now. Sad? Maybe. Angry? Probably. Disappointed? Most likely. That was a difficult dinner. And night gathering. I didn’t feel good at all. Maybe I was just tired. Or maybe my heart was wrenching too much to let me act normal. I’m tired. What the fuck am i doing honestly. He couldn’t give a shit. Look at that fb status. You liked it? Drunk as fuck. What are you doing Stepping back. Step back. Get away from him. Not worth your time anymore. Don’t text him don’t call him don’t do anything don’t message him don’t ask to see him anymore. It’s obvious where his priorities are. You need to set yourself straight girl. You need to think for yourself. Guys hate to lose. If they know or feel like theyre winning, they would not could not will not give a shit. And you just make him feel like he’s a winner. A keeper. Because you’re still here after 1 fucking year. You made the decision to break Sean’s heart for him. Now it’s time to make that same decision and get yourself out of this mess. No more boys. Just men.
you guys have a great time hanging out
but when work gets in the way, whether it be from part-time, full time, or studying
everything just disappears
like you weren’t anything special
they tell you you are special to them
but you don’t feel it at all. (isn’t that what matters?)
so you find yourself in the waiting room.
The liars are the ones who only want you around when it is convenient for them. The liars will not make an effort to keep you around because they know you’ll be there either way; or they really couldn’t care less if you walked away. The liars make you feel so happy one day but the next you get the cold shoulder. That’s because you never were appealing to them imthe first place. Work is not a valid reason, it’s an excuse. They say they can’t handle maintaining something with you while they’re studying. That’s because they don’t want you to bother them in their real life. Liars say they won’t hurt you… But they always will.
The real deals?
Who jokes about spending time with someone? There is a little truth behind every sarcastic remark.
You know it’s a moment thing
And you’ve prepared yourself to expect the worst
But when the unexpected happens, everything you were angry about, everything you were prepared to hear dissipates and a smile creeps onto your face.
With just one word, one sentence, one phrase, all your doubts seem to float away. But you know it’s not true. It’s not true.